Change to Charge

Lately, I've been feeling as if I'm at a standstill in my life. I have a great family, great friends, a great job, a great calling, and great health, but I feel like I'm not really progressing.

I have been thinking a lot about this today. I envy those who are able to fearlessly take chances and jump into new and scary situations in order to become better people and enjoy life. The people around me are fantastic; they are motivated, driven to succeed, and wanting to better those around them at the same time. I want to be one of these people, but I am scared. I'm normally a creature of habit, never wanting to stray too far from the familiar and the comfortable but lately I've been yearning for a change.

Today, we had some nurses on our unit that were shadowing us, getting the feel for what goes on in an adolescent mental health unit. To my surprise, I was assigned one of these nurses to show them the ropes. I doubted myself at first but remembered that I was doing the best I could and was helping others. I realized that I am more capable than I realized.

Because of this, I've had what I might call an epiphany about what I need to do. I need to take those leaps of faith, despite the chance that I might fail. I need to get into the mindset that I am more powerful than I know, that I just need to believe in myself and great things can happen. Because of this, I've decided that the first step I am going to take is to ask to be made a Charge Nurse. This is a big step for me, although it won't be without the wonderful support of my co-workers. I will start out by being Charge on night shifts and then eventually work up to the more daunting day and evening Charge. I know I can do it, I just need to work hard and believe in myself.

I want to end this with a quote that has always been one of my favourites. 

I hope that I can continue to inspire myself and others as I progress throughout my life. I hope that I will continue to be presented with challenges that scare me but give me the opportunity to be courageous and be the person I need to be.